Sunday Post: Follow Your Dreams

Jakesprinter has really challenged me with this contest.   I struggled even to define dreams.  I have achieved many personal dreams in life, meaning ambitions, and am working on others.  I wanted to ignore the deeper meaning, the subconscious, the murky sludge in the pit of the mind that comes to haunt our sleep.  I reread Jake’s introductory post, and decided I must include both definitions to meet the challenge he presented.

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Follow Your Dreams 

So I started to research my dreams, those illusive, frightening flashes of unedited video that our brains play against our wills.  Most of the dreams I remember are so frightening that I wake up.  Generally the setting is a cliff, and I am driving or at least inside of a car.  Often There is a windy road, and even stairs or steps.  The plots vary.

Don't look down!
Don’t look down!

My mother drives her red Volkswagen around the horsehair turns up the mountain highway.   We edge  precariously toward the side of the road.  Unlike this picture, my dreams had no railings to protect us from dropping off the edge of the world.   The highway ends, and there is no sign.  Our car needs to fly, but it can’t.  I awaken, but I try to rewrite my dream so that we don’t die.

I found an online dream dictionary that explained the meaning of symbols in dreams.

“To dream that you are driving a car denotes your ambition, your drive and your ability to navigate from one stage of your life to another.  If you are driving the car, then you are taking an active role in the way your life is going.  However, if you are the passenger, then you are taking a passive role.  Overall, this dream symbol is an indication of your dependence and degree of control you have on your life.”

“To dream that you or someone falls off a cliff suggests that you are going through a difficult time and are afraid of what is ahead for you. You fear that you may not be up for the challenge or that you cannot meet the expectations of others.”

Online Dream Dictionary at Dreammoods.com

When I was 15 my mother, brother and I moved away from family and friends in Indiana to begin a new chapter of our lives  in Oregon.  Mom had no job, no leads.  We moved in July, and I began my junior year of high school a month later.  Outwardly I thought it was a great adventure.  I loved Oregon. I got out of doing my journalism assignment in Indiana.  The weather was much nicer in Oregon.  My critical dad still lived in Indiana.  I was happy.  My subconscious, must have thought differently.  I took that dream off the “To Follow” list.

My dreams usually involve a cliff, water, and sometimes stairs or steps.
My dreams usually involve a cliff, water, a car, and sometimes stairs

Laughter fills the brightly lit home at the top of the cliff.  The party ends, and my friends and I get into the red car and try to drive, but the river (or ocean – it varies) rises, flooding the dark, windy street.  We drive through rushing water until we can’t go farther, and the water still rises.  I awaken terrified.  I don’t want to follow this dream!

“To dream that you drive your car into a body of water or that it rolls into water implies that you are in for an emotional journey.  To dream that you are in a flood represents your need to release some sexual desires. If the flood is raging, then it represents emotional issues and tensions. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you.”

“To see a road in your dream refers to your sense of direction and how you are pursuing your goals. If the road is winding, curvy, or  bumpy in your dream, then it suggests that  you will encounter many obstacles and setbacks toward achieving your goals. You may be met with unexpected difficulties. If the road is dark, then it reflects the controversial or more frightening choices which you have made or are making.”

Online Dream Dictionary at Dreammoods.com

The dictionary accurately explained my often repeated nightmare during my 30s and 40s.  Although I realized my personal goal to become a teacher during this time, and I had happy times, there were many difficulties.  I worked, finished college, got a teaching credential, found employment, was laid off several times and reemployed, started a masters’ degree, did what I could as a pastor’s wife to support the emotional needs of our church family as well as help keep our personal financial heads above water.  However, we found that my husband’s genetic condition left him with emphysema, and chronic heart failure.  Within six years of starting his pastorate, at age 43 he retired, and passed away shortly before his 48th birthday.  We had no children.

Red cars dominate my dreams.
Red cars dominate my dreams.

I’m in my red car.  We drive up the cement steps into the house, which has no walls, but only a fireplace.  I awaken confused.

“To dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs indicate that you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your spiritual, emotional or material journey. The dream is also analogous to material and thoughts that are coming to the surface.”

“To dream that a house has no walls represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.”

“To see an abandoned house in your dream implies that you have left behind your past. You are ready to move forward toward the future.”

Online Dream Dictionary at Dreammoods.com

My most recent dream didn’t seem too positive to me when I dreamed it, but I wasn’t frightened.  By this time I had remarried and become an instructional consultant – my top goal in life.  We had bought and remodeled a modest home on an acre of beautiful foothill country.  We lived comfortably, I loved my work, and we both worked hard at our chosen careers.   Again, the dream moods folks seem to have nailed my emotional state at the time.   Of the three paths, this one was the most pleasant – even though the house came without walls.

Stairway to achievement
Stairway to achievement

I don’t know why I have been so ambitious in life. It shocked all my immediate family, but seemed essential to me.  If dreams equate to ambitions.  I truly followed them.  I reached the end of my dreams, and now I dream again.

As far as sleeping “dreams” relating to real life, I would characterize those dreams as the followers. My life was what it was with its ups and downs, obstacles and successes.  I’m glad I didn’t dwell on the “dreams” and the barriers and setbacks they represented.  It was difficult enough just to deal with the problems without getting mired in them.  I chose not to follow my “dreams”, but to follow my ambitions instead.

As a pastor’s wife, a teacher, a consultant and coach, and now a blogger, I have heard many, many life stories.  Not one of them has been without difficulty.  People have handicaps, financial losses, deaths, accidents, poor health, and they struggle to journey along.  Much like my dreams did, their dreams probably also reflect the hindrances that they encountered along the way.   Let’s rebel against THOSE dreams.  They lead us backwards.  They reflect what was.

Let’s march together into unchartered territory where, to the best of our abilities, we love each other, and create a sustainable life together, and we face the obstacles with bravery and laughter.  Let’s create a place – even in cyberspace – where we liberally support each other with hugs and affection, listening ears and encouraging words.  And let’s travel the rest of the way as a community of friends.

My personal belief is that God created us, not perfect, but able.  I KNOW that we I need his help, and without God we I can do nothing.  I choose not to judge others’ convictions, but I choose Jesus Christ as my Savior, and I realize how totally inadequate I am without him to cover for me.

This has been a difficult post to write, and my husband V will say in the morning when he reads it, “You should not write that much about yourself.”  He’s probably right.  I am WAY too open with people.  Many of you have been very open with me as well.  Even knowing that the world can read EVERYTHING we write, you have shared some deep stories in the content of your comments as well as your posts.  What we write, for all we know, NEVER goes completely away.  Yet, the need to be known and accepted by others is SO great that we share anyway.

I avoided writing to this post all week.  Now I know why.  It didn’t start out to be this deep, but here it is.  I’ve been having a lot of fun these past weeks, teasing and joking.  I love to try to make people laugh.  Hopefully I haven’t wounded anyone along the way, as is the case with humor sometimes.  Now you see the overly serious side to Marsha Lee.  The truth’s out now – for you to accept, reject, ignore, criticize, love, share, or respond to in some way.  I am yours.  🙂

Author: Marsha

Hi, I'm Marsha Ingrao, author, blogger and retired teacher/consultant. Read more about me here. http://wp.me/P7tP3I-2

19 thoughts on “Sunday Post: Follow Your Dreams”

  1. I am honored that you chose to be this deep. I enjoy “knowing” you better, and it only increases the friendship that I feel we create online. Thank you for having the trust to share. 🙂

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  2. Dear Marsha,
    I really appreciate your sharing your story. This was a very thoughtful and thought-provoking post that has me thinking about my own life too, and the choices I made and still make every day. Thank you!

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  3. This is a beautiful post and very personal. I believe in being positive, which is not always easy in times of difficulty or sadness. I think you show so much positivity in every post you write and especially this one. I am honoured to be your friend.

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    1. Eunice!!! I feel so loved!!!! Thanks so much! We are planning some wonderful times with friends, who are like family, since our family members are either scattered or working. I wish you a wonderful time of joy and celebration as well. Thanks for the star. I need to update my sidebar! I think we should all have stars sprinkled all over our sideboards, footers and in our posts! Blogging has made us all stars, and what fun it is!!!!! Lots of love, Marsha Lee 🙂

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      1. Lots of Love coming right back at you honey I am glad you LOVED your STAR!!!!

        We will hike or search for treasure just the 3 of us Brothers live in other states Mom we already had her to ourselves after all I am first born 🙂

        Have a BLAST!!!
        The world did not end so time to focus and make this year THE BEST!

        Eunice

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  4. Absolutely fabulous post!! I know that feeling after posting something so personal (I was feeling that, was it, yesterday?) after I decided you were a confessional booth. I was lime-water deprived, you might have guessed. 😉

    I relate to that feeling of ambition and I know I have many challenges ahead as you have known. There are so many grand words of wisdom to reflect upon and and relate to here, and I am grateful. I will probably read it again. Very well written, so beautifully done. I am in awe indeed of this post….aye, I know you what you mean when the typing begins and that faint feeling, “Oh I should not post this…” but I go ahead anyway. I am so grateful for the friendships I am witnessing forming here on this blog, this wonderful evolution it is undergoing, as we do in life, and am so excited about the future. As always, the energy of your writing, the positivity and the inspiration of it, is infectious. You are brilliant.

    My dreams, me-self often involve cliffs, too, especially quarries and deep quagmires lurking in the depths below, and I am the one driving, but….mine has a slightly different angle. Rarely there is a road, and I often jump out and let the car continue hurtling, and often with someone locked inside, which…I am giddy about as I watch them hurl into the depths below. (there is usually a whole plot of pre-meditation). No remorse, just euphoria. There are other such scenes where I am a murderer….and on top of that, I usually am not in my own body, I take the form of other people, usually characters made-up, male or female. I wonder what dreams online would have to say about that??? Dreams about being a happy murderer in another body? They are very detailed too, I could write stories about them…I’ve had dreams of being a murderer since I was wee, but it used to bother me a wee bit more when I was four.

    Thank you for this post, I just adore it…so much to draw from here. I know that feeling when you left, too, as I felt that leaving that IL town to come to FL.

    Cheers, and a happy Christmas to you and V and family!!

    Autumn Jade

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  5. I do like your choice of red car… Ford Shelby Mustang Convertable! Not sure what year though?! I’m a bit of a car person! 😉 dad wants to get a Mustang, mum has ‘Bumble Bee’ off transformers now dad just needs his Mustang ‘decepticon’ 😀 (asuming you have seen the movie Transformers and know what I’m talking about?!?!?!? LOL!)

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      1. Haha I would definitely recommend watching the movies! They’re really cool! They are mums favourite movies because it has her car in it!! Lol dad should get his Mustang (in the movie the mustang is the bad guy and bumble bee is the good guy) so that mum can follow behind the mustang in bumble bee along the motorway as if bumble bee is chasing after the bad guy!!!??? LOL 😀

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